Mini note to self :) About God's will!

Gently embrace whatever arise that you need to forgive, with love and no judgment.
Welcome it, let it all come up and see gently through it. Whatever comes up, be not afraid it is "I".
I am not upset for the reason I think. But validate it. I have every reason to be upset, if I believe in my dream, it's okay. Feel it, process it gently, without any guild of feeling that. Tell yourself: "this is just a small distraction, it is coming from me, I am trying to punish myself by making this real, but it's okay. No on e is judging myself but myself." Forgive yourself for dreaming this and believe this could be possible.
Feel whatever feeling you need to feel, validate it, process it, slowly, take all your time in the world doing this. It's okay. If it's a slow burn forgiveness, give it to the Holy spirit and feel God's will for you is perfect happiness. Not punishment or torture. Realize that your grievances are just small distractions and feel the love of God that is truly there.
Don't take it personally, including your healthy body. It's okay, nothing is taken seriously by the holy spirit. 
Forgive yourself for seemingly dreaming all this. There is nothing to forgive, because it is not really happening :)
But be gentle to yourself for reacting, anyone would react by dreaming such a nightmare so it's okay. Be kind to yourself! Forgive yourself for dreaming you could even punish yourself.
It's not just what you forgive but it's mainly HOW you forgive, how mindfully and gently you forgive yourself and everything. The holy spirit is ALWAYS gentle and kind and ALWAYS smiling! Never anything is taken seriously.

Don't even take your body personally or seriously.
Forgive yourself for dreaming that you are a mortal body that can die and be crushed like an Ant any second:

Carrying any story is VERY heavy like a great big rock.
The greatest rock (fear) that Yogi Ant is carrying, is the belief that God hates him and threw him out of heaven. (That's a BIG load to carry!)

You are pure spirit, a mind incorporeal, dreaming that you are an impermanent, mortal body and dreaming that God hates you.

The body is the greatest rock you can carry.
It is the perfect torture instrument you can project.
It is impermanent, frail, and can be crushed and die any second, like an Ant.
The greatest sickness you can invent is a healthy body.
(Coming soon here, "The Ant Crush")
A small talk about Yogi Ant and its greatest unconscious guilt, the greatest rock he is carrying.

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“While the practice of forgiveness, or undoing guilt, is usually experienced as complex and long term, it can be understood essentially as a three-step process (see, e.g., T-5.VIl.6; W-pI.23.5; W-pl.70.1-4: W-pI.196.7-11). The first step reverses the projection as we realize that the guilt is not in another but in ourselves. Second, now that the guilt has been brought to our attention and we recognize that its source is in us, we undo this decision by choosing to see ourselves as guiltless Sons of God, rather than guilty sons of the ego. These two steps are our responsibility; the final one is the Holy Spirit's, Who is able to take the guilt from us now that we have released it to Him, looking at it with His Love beside us, and thus without judgment and guilt. This looking without judgment, in gentle laughter, is the meaning of forgiveness. Using the workbook as our guide, we become trained over time to hear the Holy Spirit's Voice, learning that all things are opportunities to learn forgiveness (W-pI.193).” 
― Kenneth Wapnick, Glossary-Index for A Course in Miracles